The Closing Of Another Chapter
I've never been so happy or excited to go for an exam but today's. I'm really lucky 'cause this is one of my favourite course for this semester and throughout my undergrad studies.
I was excited because it is my last paper in my uni life, my last undergrad exam, and most importantly, I'm graduating. I don't have to come back and live in this place. I don't have to climb five storeys up and down to go to my room or to buy something. I don't have to pack and unpack every couple of months. No more long bus rides. No more handwashing my clothes. No assignments with referencing system. Awesome!
I have so many things to look forward to after this. Went to dinner with Jonathan, one of my best friends in uni, going home in a few hours time, meeting my best friends and have our little celebration, going to Australia to spend time with Lyon and to do a lot of catching up with him, and to find myself a place in the working world. The last one is a mixed of both excitement and fear.
I did the last bit of what I do so much in uni, I went stargazing. It was thundering and there were lightning before this but the thundering died off. So I decided to stargaze after packing most of my things. I went alone. It made me think a lot. The people I was with and now they are all away from me. I realized that it doesn't even take uni to end to drift you apart. I was disappointed with how things went but this is life, people will go their own way. Maybe that's why I am reluctant to be really close to someone because it hurts when people drift away. I don't tear up quite often when people depart, that's because I've never been that close to them. This time though it hurts because I put my bet on it and I lost. So that explains why I don't really have secrets, I don't really mind people knowing me because secrets are exclusive. I don't like it when people use this exclusivity as a trade, secrets holds you down. I don't like to be held down like that. At times like this, I am thankful for those who never walk out on me.
I'll be home soon, I don't know how I'll handle this whole at home culture thing. I'm going home as another person a newer version of the one that left three years ago.
I've never been so happy or excited to go for an exam but today's. I'm really lucky 'cause this is one of my favourite course for this semester and throughout my undergrad studies.
I was excited because it is my last paper in my uni life, my last undergrad exam, and most importantly, I'm graduating. I don't have to come back and live in this place. I don't have to climb five storeys up and down to go to my room or to buy something. I don't have to pack and unpack every couple of months. No more long bus rides. No more handwashing my clothes. No assignments with referencing system. Awesome!
I have so many things to look forward to after this. Went to dinner with Jonathan, one of my best friends in uni, going home in a few hours time, meeting my best friends and have our little celebration, going to Australia to spend time with Lyon and to do a lot of catching up with him, and to find myself a place in the working world. The last one is a mixed of both excitement and fear.
I did the last bit of what I do so much in uni, I went stargazing. It was thundering and there were lightning before this but the thundering died off. So I decided to stargaze after packing most of my things. I went alone. It made me think a lot. The people I was with and now they are all away from me. I realized that it doesn't even take uni to end to drift you apart. I was disappointed with how things went but this is life, people will go their own way. Maybe that's why I am reluctant to be really close to someone because it hurts when people drift away. I don't tear up quite often when people depart, that's because I've never been that close to them. This time though it hurts because I put my bet on it and I lost. So that explains why I don't really have secrets, I don't really mind people knowing me because secrets are exclusive. I don't like it when people use this exclusivity as a trade, secrets holds you down. I don't like to be held down like that. At times like this, I am thankful for those who never walk out on me.
I'll be home soon, I don't know how I'll handle this whole at home culture thing. I'm going home as another person a newer version of the one that left three years ago.
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