Value, this word came strong to me. What exactly is value? To me it is the amount of emotional attachment I have with a certain subject. In which it can be both tangible and intangible. Despite being the best surprise spoiler, I am good with surprises within myself. It's weird how I actually don't really understand myself as how I love to believe that I do. Value come really close with this one.


Staring right outside my window, I can see the beautiful blue sky with thin spread clouds, we've come this far. It made me realised how much I value where we are at the moment. Value, you definitely have a lot of it in my life. Learning more about you helps me discover my other self, a very different person that I never had the chance to know.


The value that lies within cannot be measured by the riches nor poor of the world. I can feel the sincerity through the immense effort that you put into in trying to make me happy and comfortable. I'm really glad and grateful for all that you have done. I can't put them into words, thus this came in very scattered.

Being A Professional Bum


Alright! It's home and no more uni. I am bored and restless and I miss my stressful life. I'll regret saying the last one but I feel like that. I'm not doing anything productive at the moment. So what does it take to be a professional bum? Seriously it takes a lot. I'm becoming so bored at home I don't know what to do and I'm losing my mood to do stuff. That's terrible.

I might want to start painting and crafting again 'cause it always keep me busy. I now know why old retired people get all frustrated and bitter. Being unproductive is really challenging mentally. Wow this is not even worthy of a post.

The Closing Of Another Chapter


I've never been so happy or excited to go for an exam but today's. I'm really lucky 'cause this is one of my favourite course for this semester and throughout my undergrad studies.

I was excited because it is my last paper in my uni life, my last undergrad exam, and most importantly, I'm graduating. I don't have to come back and live in this place. I don't have to climb five storeys up and down to go to my room or to buy something. I don't have to pack and unpack every couple of months. No more long bus rides. No more handwashing my clothes. No assignments with referencing system. Awesome!

I have so many things to look forward to after this. Went to dinner with Jonathan, one of my best friends in uni, going home in a few hours time, meeting my best friends and have our little celebration, going to Australia to spend time with Lyon and to do a lot of catching up with him, and to find myself a place in the working world. The last one is a mixed of both excitement and fear.

I did the last bit of what I do so much in uni, I went stargazing. It was thundering and there were lightning before this but the thundering died off. So I decided to stargaze after packing most of my things. I went alone. It made me think a lot. The people I was with and now they are all away from me. I realized that it doesn't even take uni to end to drift you apart. I was disappointed with how things went but this is life, people will go their own way. Maybe that's why I am reluctant to be really close to someone because it hurts when people drift away. I don't tear up quite often when people depart, that's because I've never been that close to them. This time though it hurts because I put my bet on it and I lost. So that explains why I don't really have secrets, I don't really mind people knowing me because secrets are exclusive. I don't like it when people use this exclusivity as a trade, secrets holds you down. I don't like to be held down like that. At times like this, I am thankful for those who never walk out on me.

I'll be home soon, I don't know how I'll handle this whole at home culture thing. I'm going home as another person a newer version of the one that left three years ago.