Closing Of Another Chapter


2010 has been amazing.

At the very last bits of the year, the parcel came by and that made my day. Learnt a lot about each other, learnt to resolve issues, learnt to trust, learnt to many many things. But mostly I'm really thankful for the presence of a special person in my life and how we are working it out through ups and downs. Thanks for being with me.

Moved back home and had more time with the besties. The ones who were there for me through it all and the ones who would never turn their backs on me. Had many many cooking session for church and for fun. That is bliss.

Uni ended, found a new job, met great colleagues who is supportive and caring. Though work is tough for newbies, they were willing to mentor. Learnt from there as well.

The awesome deal of getting a place. I am believing in it.

Though it will be another year of entering New Year without him by my side, I'm still glad that we're together though miles apart.

To barbecues and families!

2011 will be awesome.

It's Christmas Time


2010 is coming to an end in about a week, Christmas is in two days.

Where's the spirit of festivity in me? Wrapping pressies was fun, shopping for them was fun, receiving is fun. But still... there's this bit of Christmas that isn't filled.

Is it harder to fill when your world gets bigger? Is there more gaps to fill as we grow older?

With all that noise and cheer, it feels quieter and lonelier.

Nothing comes easy, but it gets harder when you are in a daze not knowing what is.

One Day


When failure defeats a person, it takes a little piece of that person with it. It takes a little courage, a little trust, a little faith, a little bit of that a hundred percent in you.

Everything seems vague and hollow. You walk on ground but an empty ground. Thought of thoughts creeps in, embalming the mind.

One day... when fear speaks for himself, I might have to call for an end. Truly, it is just the mountain of mess that lives in me. If one is not able to speed, why hold another back? If one is not compatible, why be forceful? If one is not good enough, why deteriorate another?

The only justification for this is to not let potential slip by.